Electrical shock

This morning I woke up shivering. I turned on out local traffic and weather channel to find out it is 59 degrees out (chilly). Great. The a/c is off and now we have to keep the windows closed . My electricity bill arrived yesterday covering the last two months when it was about 100 degrees (super hot) for a few weeks . We managed to use over 4600 kilowatts (a personal record) which cost us more than $1000.00 (a lot of money). We are on a budget plan with our utility company so my electric bill will go from around $300.00 per month to 670.00 per month until we are caught up. I guess we will be walking around in the dark for a while. It stopped raining yesterday for a while but there is more rain coming as Ernesto heads north. I detest hurricane season. I feel compelled to watch the news more and the fearmongers on CNN really get to me. I suppose it is good on some level to remain informed, especially with Sonnyboy being so electrically dependent, but I get all riled up. In turn I guess I rile everyone else up. Oh well! Hubby was using the laptop right before me and left a window open that has a graphic of lightening striking on the upper left corner of my screen. Seems apropos.

Birds of a feather...

may flock together under ordinary circumstances but not always. Lately I have seen a variety of different birds flocking together on my front lawn. There are mourning doves, robins, orchard orioles, starlings, mockingbirds, finches, sparrows, cowbirds, woodpeckers and a number of other birds I have had trouble identifying even with my trusty copy of Peterson's Guide. This is unusual. In addition to seeing so many different kinds of birds all out there at the same time they are out there in the pouring rain. It has been raining for days. It may be that the worms have all come up to the surface to escape drowning. It may be that some specie of insect has hatched. I don't spray poisons on the lawn so things do live out there. I do not see birds across the street where they do poison. It has all been very entertaining. I am quite a cheap date aren't I?

Blogger has eaten my most recent attempt at publishing. If you are reading this I succeeded this time.

seeking perfection in an imperfect world

Don't even try. Something will likely go SPRONG in your head. Life goes on and on. If I were to stay pissed off at everyone who has pissed me off in the last day or two I would be in a permanent state of pissoffedness. This could seriously interfere with any plans I might have for future sainthood,in addition to the fact that I'm not a Catholic,have never been involved in any miracles and have made Santa's naughty list on more than one occasion. Great, Hubby just spilled ketchup on me. SPRONG.

Sonnyboy is just peachy these days. He has taken on a new hobby. Sonnyboy? A hobby? Do tell! Sonnyboy is perfecting the 2 day week. How does one do this ? One does this by being asleep twice and being awake twice in a week. Like this...

awake = 45 hours
asleep= 24 hours
awake = 76 hours
asleep= 23 hours

I am peachy too. I have a new hobby. I travel. No, not time travel. No, not astral projection. No, I just go to google night sky map. It's so purdy with all them bright spots and then I click on day map. Then I carefully zoom in and maneuver and presti er presto I have traveled to every house I have lived in as an adult. I have been to Stonehenge. The Panama Canal. The mouth of the Amazon And today I finally zeroed in on the Pyramids at Giza. I love my arm chair travel. Where to next?

just a thought

I'm not saying women are more industrious than men but...

1. I have never seen a riding vacuum cleaner.

2. I have never seen a Laz-y-girl chair.

3. I have never seen an ad for a Guy Friday.

Hmmm...

my lap tops back...

and you're gonna be in trouble...

not really, but, it sounded funny to me.

While this blog has mainly been about the trials and tribulations of our own personal world, it is difficult not to notice or make mention of what is going on outside our doors. As you are all thinking feeling people who come to visit here and to share I do not wish to burden you with news that is unavoidable. I try to stay away from CNN etc. but, as a thinking , feeling person there are times when I feel I need information. I then hurry back to the relative oblivion offered by Bloggingland to steady my nerves. It may seem I am callous if I choose not to comment on the evil being done but I feel so powerless over it that I just can not. I will try to keep this blog as apolitical as possible and will confine any political comments to my Evil Influences blog, if at all. I'm overwhelmed by recent events. If I come to visit your blog and you choose to comment on world events I will no longer join in any political conversations as they only increase my growing sense of ill ease and they wear me out. It will have to be fairsCaPe light for now. I make this decision with a sense of shame at not being stronger and with a sense of self preservation of my embattled psyche. Thank you all for understanding.

memory is a bitch

If only it all
were a dream
and I could wake up
and it would be over
and I could forget

If only I could be
devine
and I could forgive
and it would be over
and I could forget

If only
the names
of everyday objects
in my hands
could put words in my mouth
and I could speak easily
and I wouldn't stammer
and I wouldn't get crazy
I could forget

If only
I had never had
this stupid disease
and stupid radiation
and stupid chemotherapy
and stupid pain
and stupid painkilers
that make me stupid
that make me
forget

If only
I remember
one thing
and remember it so well
that none of this matters
and that one thing
will erase all the pain
and that one thing
will make it all have
some sort
of meaning
and that one thing
is that I love you

Never Forget